back in the vern...
well, i'm back in the vern now, and i've spent the past few days trying to get back in the swing of things...it hasn't been easy...i've thought a lot about posting on here, but every chance i get i instead lay down and fall asleep...i dont think i have every been this tired after one of our mission trips or summer events...i didn't take a day off after we got back...went right back to work on monday...i thought it would be a good idea since so many of the volunteers had to do the same...wish i had some time to take off later this week, though...really really tired...

mission concord was really good...i really think the kids had a great experience...several kids really suprised me...bryce wants to be baptized...nick was a vocal leader...lindsay...wow...i am so proud of her...totally threw her plans for college to the wind in order to follow jesus to christian college...awesome...there are a lot more stories...cant share them all...just a really great week...there were, as is to be expected, some frustrations as well...but who needs to focus on those, right?...

seriously, i would say that i am totally under attack right now...i feel like i am being nailed by satan...total negative attitude...others attacking me...tiredness...lack of vision...fear...apathy...fear...anger...fear...and MORE FEAR...the more i think about it the more sure i am that i am being attacked...i need to do what i know i need to do...retreat to the garden and be alone with god...gotta get some time later this week...huge need...