almost over...

sometimes i wonder why i do the things i do...i mean, think about it...why am i doing this program?...really...why?...is there really any benefit to me getting this master's degree?...i know there is benefit to education...i know that all the research says that more education equals more pay and better job security...but in my current situation...i am having a really hard time figuring out how things will be any different for me once i get done with this degree...and i am totally not enjoying it right now...its boring stuff that seems (at the moment) completely irrelevant...now i am the first to admit that not everything important seems to at the initial moments...but seriously, i've thought this through...its irrelevant...

maybe i'll take lindsays approach...go somewhere else...i like that approach...proactive...spontaneous...goal directed...i get it...maybe...but it is so cal...and in a couple more days i will actually get to enjoy that for a couple of days...but of course the weather is turning and they are expecting things to get cooler and maybe some rain over the weekend...of course...seriously, that is what has happened every time i have been out here for this program...beautiful while in class...rain while out...it sucks...

i slept really good last night...finally...lots of dreams...good dreams...i know that much...i just cant remember them...ok...well, i better start paying attention in class...haha...i'm the only one typing on my laptop...probably looks kinda suspicious...haha...till next time...