not much to say...

i talked to brandon today, and he scolded me for not writing on here for awhile...haha...it's true, i haven't written in a long time...it's not that i haven't had a lot going on...even some exciting stuff...i've even sat down about three times to blog, and nothing comes out...i think maybe its just some writers block or something, because i feel like i should have plenty to say...it's just not happening though...

if i had to write something tonight it would be a story from the pdym student leadership conference...isn't it weird how, at almost 33 years old, you can still be challenged by a teenager?...and not just challenged with leadership or patience or something else like that...i mean, challenged to be more of the person you know you were created to be...it happened to me this past week...

bethany hamilton, an 18y.o. professional surfer who had her arm bitten off by a shark, shared her testimony...she was preceded by a movie called "walk on water" about her life...it was great...but the thing that challenged me the most were the first words she said when she came out on stage...she said, "i wouldn't take my arm back if i had the chance."...wow...really? she is an 18 year old girl in the spotlight in an industry that values beauty and appearance...and she wouldn't take her arm back even if she had the chance...she said it has given her so many opportunities to share her faith that she wouldn't trade it for the world...

it made me think of paul...he says "for me, to die is gain"...bethany is living this out...

i don't think i do...

i was challenged...i wanna be more like that...i want to hold onto nothing in this world so tightly that i would miss the opportunities that god puts in front of me to love others into his kingdom...even my own life...i wanna be ready to let it go...the only thing holding me back, it seems, is me...

hmmm...just another wondering of a wannabe...

till later...