i got a peaceful, easy feelin...

it has been a good day...as you can tell, i havent had much time to blog lately...i've been a little busy totally having my life flipped upside down...ok, well...maybe thats a little dramatic...but i have had quite a period of unsettling lately...lots of good kids i've been mentoring for years leaving for college...friends moving out of town...computers crashing...a girl in and out of the picture quicker than i can say "crap"...again...haha...my worship leader has resigned...hired a new worship leader...ok enough...you get the picture...very unsettling...

so today was the first day in a long time that i have felt in control of my life...i had a really good day as far as finally getting some work done...i got some new things rolling...had a very productive, positive meeting...got rid of some responsibilities that were weighing me down...all in all a peaceful day...

so you'll notice that i am mentioning "new computer" a lot on here lately...i recently purchased a 12" powerbook...freakin awesome...love it...so portable and seriously user-friendly...cant wait to get some time to just get away and learn some more with it...i also got a new dell this week...my work computer died...and when i say "died" i mean kapoot...dead as a doornail...bit the dust...kicked the bucket...again...you get the picture...ok...so 3 service calls later and 3 motherboards later...a new 17" widescreen dell...fully loaded...freakin awesome too...even if it is the size of a small house...HUGE...love it though since i have the powerbook to tote around easily...everything is finally getting transfered over and its all coming back together after 3 weeks...literally...of total chaos...peaceful

i have been praying for so many people lately...thats good...i want to become a pray-er...in private...not in prayer meetings...not in public...but i want to be someone that quietly petitions God on behalf of others...and i have been...peaceful...

i need another day like this tomorrow...

new computer...
i just realized last night that I haven't posted on here in quite a while...today i am doing this on my new mac powerbook g4...i'm really liking it...i got the 12" model but i beefed it up quite a bit, so it is very compact and still very powerful...much like myself...hahaha...

things have been a little crazy around here...like i said in the last post, the mission trip with the kids was really great...there is a great momentum and motivation amongst the students right now that i am having a hard time keeping up with...haha...i turned 30 last week...i feel every bit of 30 these days...anyway, so i now have a great group of kids that are geared up and ready to go for another school year...and i really think that it is, for he most part, pretty real...not just emotion...i mean, we're a month back home now and they're still staying committed and leading...thats cool to see...an answered prayer...

i am struggling a little right now with the idea of all these kids that i have mentored for so long leaving for college...i had a great small group meeting last night with a few of them...pretty emotional...i love those kids so much and i have such high hopes for their lives...and i know that they are going to be fine...but much like a parent, i think, i am really excited and worried all at the same time for them...and i am scared myself of what is next for me...it has been 5 years of pouring into them...and now they are leaving...big change for me...it helps HUGE that there are young kids coming up with contagious excitement...it's helping me adjust to the idea of this coming shift...

travis, my man...i love ya and i know you'll make us all proud...be smart...do right...and come home often...lots of love...